Failure or Fatigued? Or was it just cramps from hell?

So today's run was to be a 2 mile run and then tomorrow was to be 2 mile warm up/cool down with a 10k time trial in between. Well I had to flip flop because I can't run 10 miles after I teach my RPM class (or before but I'm doing the AM show thru next Thursday). I wanted to really take this challenge on -the time trial-because its what is going to help me be in prime shape come race time and is going to help keep boredom at bay while I train. Last night I was struck with sever back pain, it comes with my monthly pain in the ass. Anyway, I'm not due to start till Tuesdayish but wham bam come 5 days early! What's really crappy about this is I'm still taking my BC pills and don't stop until Sunday! WTF? More on that later.

So my day starts out bitter sweet; my Matty left this am for 5 days but he totally surprised me by leaving me a book from my all time favorite author and a sweet card on the front seat of my car. (I say this just to brag cuz he's so wonderful) Breakfast was a bagel with weight watchers cream cheese, tomato slices, energy drink and some jenny-o extra lean turkey bacon. No fiber or dairy! I get to the RIT and as always pee before I begin my run but what happens 2 miles in? I gotta pee. Luckily right at that point there is another potty so I stop to pee and guess what else hits...the return of the RT's (I must have jinxed myself with the last blog)! But after that stop I feel FAB so I hit my 10k time trial and I'm doing well I get all the way to Dunlap and turn back around and make my 8.2 miles with a pretty decent time(but my Nike+ was off another jinx) so it says just under 8 miles. :( This is my start point and I have a 2 mile cool down so I always stop at my midway point (or slightly beyond) to rehydrate and WHAMBLAMBLAM the RT's come back with a vengeance. I felt like my intestines were gonna come out my ass. Plus my legs were already cramping because I ran fast for my time trial. But then this is where I about keel over with overwhelming back pain and about pass out because I can't breath. (I don't get cramps I get back pain...I'm sooo lucky) So I decided to call it a day and I missed my 2 mile cool down. Ok so yeah its only 2 miles but dammit I wanted to do those 2 miles and I'm down right pissed off I didn't. I hate my body when it doesn't do what I want it to do.

So I decide its time to call Erin again because since the first of the year I have not had a consistent period. I was on the shot for like 7 years but have been off for like 2.5 years now, it took a year+ just for it to return. And its very inconsistent; one time it will be 3 days, the next 5 but the past 3 months its been 7 days this last month it was 8. And now this month it started 5 days early!!!! But the past 2 months have been pure hell because the back pain is so bad and NOTHING helps. I don't know if its because of my weight loss, workout habits, change in diet, or the shot effed me up or what. I love the BC pills I am now because the breakouts are mild (only a few days before that time) I have no mood swings but its the pain that I can't deal with, which was why I was on the shot to begin with. Mostly at night it bothers me because I can't get comfortable to sleep/relax. Doctor I guess wants me to have an ultra sounds, not sure why, so I am going in tomorrow morning at 10:30, she said they may switch my BC again or put me back on the shot. If I had my way I would just have my lady parts taken out but...well I wont get it my way. Anyway, I'm pissed off because I couldn't do what I wanted to do today and I feel like I suck. And now I am done venting and yes you bet your ass my 2 mile run for tomorrow just turned into a 4 miler!